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The Man Of My Dreams Is Another Man’s Sexual Fantasy On Social Media

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This is low key messy. But in a way messiness always finds its way to me. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to share this story or not. I guess since these stories are highly requested, I think I’ll spill the tea.

I was very embarrassed about this situation for a long time. Some people I’m cool with don’t even know about this at all. But it happened over a year ago. Somehow, I thought about it earlier and I guess I’ll just tell the story.

I met a guy on Jack’d a year ago… I KNOW JACK’D IS THE DEVIL! But Shit, I don’t fuck with Grindr. BGCLIVE is FILLED with hackers, trolls, and bums. Ugh, that site has completely fallen off. But anyway, I met this guy on Jack’d and at first, I was looking at his pictures sideways and not in a shady way. I knew I had seen his face somewhere but I just couldn’t pinpoint it. Whether if it was in real life or cyberland.

But keep reading… The story just getting started.

I kept looking at his pictures. But I couldn’t figure out where I’ve seen his face before. I’m good with faces, I can recognize guys I’ve blocked, slid in their dms, sexted, fucked etc… I know a face before I can even remember their name. So I thought nothing of it. He lived a state away, and I won’t say which state.

We started talking and having general conversations. He kept trying to get me to come chill with him and all this extra shit. I wasn’t interested. I barely meet up with guys right away off-line anyway. One thing about me. You will wait a good ass minute before we meet face to face. That’s if we meet face to face at all. This has saved me time and probably many problems. I don’t jump up and meet randoms on the internet and I wouldn’t advise you to do that either.

The conversation was good and I noticed he was very SEXUAL. I usually avoid the sexual lusting type of guys. I’m not into the phone sex and all of that. He wanted to do all this sort of shit on the first day of talking. Should’ve been a clue right there but I didn’t care. I wasn’t going to allow him to talk me into anything, I wasn’t willing to do. So I entertained the sexting for a while — until it got old. I get bored quick especially with the sex talk. I mean we can sext. But after a certain point, you either going to talk a good game or be ready to play. All talk doesn’t keep my interest. I need that freak action if you’re going to brag about yo skills.

He kept asking me about recording videos and how I would feel if we made some videos. I was thrown back because he was STRAIGHT UP SERIOUS about the homemade porn flicks. He was telling me all types of shit about filming these freak videos and I told him nah I’m good. I’m not about to have my shit exposed online. No matter how good my skills are bruh. I’m not thirsty for no retweets or likes no shade just not my shit.

So I slowed down on him at this point. I had realized he’s only focused on sex. So I wasn’t texting him as much at this point. I was kind of over it. But at the same time, he’s SEXY. I can’t lie he was FIONEEEE. I couldn’t just let him disappear on me. Even though I didn’t want sex right away. I didn’t want to cock-block myself in-case if I needed some cuddy loving in the future.

So I would talk to him from time to time small talk. I kept my distance as far as entertaining his requests for me to come over. I wasn’t doing that, no matter how many times begged me. I wasn’t going to do that to myself. Can’t take that PUBLIC L!

My body was telling me something different. Fuck yeah, I wanted him. But I was trying to practice my celibacy. I had broken it the summer before with another guy. I was not going to mess up again at least that’s what I promised myself. UGH, I am always so damn indecisive.

 

 

 

 

Now one thing about me is the fact that I have no issue speaking about my celibacy. While on my celibacy journey, I do practice self-pleasure. I rather handle my own, then to go out here and catch these bugs. I can’t be catching flees by these men. Which is why I don’t do casual sex OFTEN. Yes, I do masturbate. I’m not big on the whole Tumblr freak pages. My primary source of pornographic videos is mostly on myvidster. But I came across a page on Twitter recently. Which was a freak page and it was linked to a Tumblr page. You all be seeing those damn videos up and down Y’all timelines too. I liked what I saw, and decided to visit the profile.

My biggest regret… I should have never clicked on that damn page!

When I came across the Tumblr page, I became ADDICTED! I mean, myvidster is cool, but TUMBLR is where all the freaks at. I didn’t know I could find all those freaks.

Let’s just say I had a GOOD TIME. I started downloading videos, going on mad pages finding more content. I had a FIELD DAY on Tumblr. Now I knew about Tumblr videos because I had a few porn blogs years ago. I have been doing this blogging shit for years, darling, bihh I’m legendary in my Kelly Mizrahi voice. But these pages were new with more content then I have ever seen on Tumblr.

I’m kind of late, I stopped using Tumblr when they deleted my page for making money on my blog, I was making a good COIN on Tumblr back then. They went and flipped it and shared it with others. LEGENDARY! I STARTED THAT TREND!

 I couldn’t believe all these guys had these homemade videos. XTUBE WHO???

I was beyond satisfied. I had enough content to last me 100 rounds for the next few years. But then, I came across this one video. I clicked on it to preview it deciding whether or not if I wanted to save it or pass it up. But then I saw HIM taking raw dicks…

He was taking dicks like he was competing in the damn Olympics. This man was getting rode so hard back to back, I doubt his walls were going to be functional after.

WALLS WHERE????

The video was only two minutes and 30 seconds long. But he was getting fucked by a gang of men. I couldn’t believe it. This guy just asked me to come over. He wanted to fuck and now I find this bullshit on TUMBLR. Sigh.

I couldn’t believe I was watching this guy getting busted wide open on some damn dirty ass mattress. NO, we were not dating, so he had no obligations to me in any way. I wasn’t tripping because I caught my boyfriend getting dicked down like a dog with rabies online before. I was tripping because he was somebody I considered as cute. I know, I wasn’t going to marry this man or fall in love with him. But the idea that I could have given him my body exchanged body fluids. And possibly of also catching something is what had me tripping.

The damn fool even allowed them to ejeculate inside his ass, and I think I spotted drips of blood a few times. 

I clicked on the link in the post, and it took me to his actual Tumblr page. This man had over 100 some videos of unprotected sex.

NO SHADE TO THE RAW DOGS! But It’s not for me boo.

This man has THOUSANDS of men lusting after him. I mean, these guys want a piece of this man. 1k or more likes on every damn post.

I don’t know. I just know it couldn’t be me. I’m so glad I didn’t go through with that shit. Those videos had me ready to regurgitate. I couldn’t erase those videos out of my mind.

Ever since that situation, I make sure I do some investigating on guys before even exchanging numbers. He was sexy, and I thought he was fine as fuck. But thankfully I didn’t follow through with his plan. I’m assuming he had plans to make me the next guy in one of his videos. It looked like most of those videos were filmed while the phone was hidden. I didn’t see him the same way after that.

The funny thing is the fact that I see him all over the web now. He calls himself a “pornstar” now.

FIN.

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Anthony Unapologetic

You Love Him But He Doesn’t Know How To Love Himself!

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One of the most complicated relationships to be in is in a damaged toxic relationship with somebody you love more than they love themselves. A lot of drug addiction, alcoholism, chaos, self-destruction, and pain. I have been with men who flat out told me that they didn’t know how to love themselves. They didn’t even know where to begin that journey of self-love and recovery.

 

These men are sometimes abandoned and battling demons internally. They were abandoned, misused, disregarded, disowned for being themselves and by people that they depended on for love and nurturing. So once they got away from that mental and sometimes physical abuse. They started to reflect that same abuse on themselves and often times onto others who try to love them.

It’s crazy how the people who show them love they mistreat and eventually push away. But the ones that hurt and has abused them they chase after for love and respect.

 

These men often are left feeling unworthy, depressed, battling promiscuous behavior, internalized anger, substance abuse, self-abuse and more. When a person strikes or hits on you when things go wrong its because that was a method used on them. That was the way their parents or guardians acted towards them. I see many unhealthy gay relationships due to one person being emotionally detached, unfaithful and disloyal.

 

It’s well documented that a damaged partner and a partner who eventually becomes damaged from that relationship occurs often. At some point, a majority of people will be in some form of abuse, substance abuse, physical or in a mentally abusive relationship. The statistics show evidence of these damaged toxic relationships occurs due to many factors in either partner’s childhood and upbringing background.

 

If nobody is seeking treatment or professional mental health evaluation then the problems will just continue on. But the biggest issue stems from these individuals lacking self-love. Why they lack it? Because they never had it to begin with. Majority of these gay men suffer from mental health due to their upbringing and their development stages.  I promise you! Every man that you come in contact with an issue of some sort regarding substance abuse, alcoholism or promiscuous unsafe sexual practices. They all suffer from lack of self-love.

 

You can’t help them until they want to get help. No matter how you try to love them through their pain. I know I’ve tried many times and it has caused more harm than good. If a person doesn’t want help and you find yourself hopeless, get out now! Not because you don’t love them but you can’t save them. They have to save themselves. If they genuinely love you they will get the help that is needed for them to love themselves first. Not because you’ve given up on them. But because they haven’t tried to put in the work for themselves. If they become self-destructive you’re going to destruct too. It may not be in the form of choices that they make but in your own unhealthy way. It’s not a good situation for neither you or your partner to be stuck in.

 

Somebody reading this post knows this is for them. I tend to write stuff that somehow resonates with people. I’m not a psychic but I got that ability to write somebody’s truth and reality. It has happened multiple of times now. For some reason, I feel like somebody may need this article today, tomorrow or maybe even next year. If this is something you’re currently dealing with you need to deal with it accordingly.

 

If that means giving them some time alone to work on themselves then do that. I don’t care how much you love him and if he loves you. If he doesn’t love himself then the problems that are constantly occurring will continue to occur. It’s not a healthy routine for either one of you to be in or be around. In a way, you’re enabling him and he’s comfortable in that place which isn’t helping his own problems.

 

Sometimes taking a break or ending things for the moment saves a life. It could be YOUR LIFE! Because his drug use, drinking problems or even promiscuous sexual activities can harm himself and ultimately you. What becomes his problem will become yours vice versa. So you have to get him help or leave so he can get the help he needs. Sometimes they will sometimes they won’t. But if it’s meant for you it will work out in your favor. If it’s not meant for you they won’t be any good in your future.

 

Take heed to my advice now before it’s too late. It’s never too late to talk to them and if it doesn’t register then go for your own sanity. Because loving somebody who can’t love themselves to be healthy mentally and spiritually will be no good for you period.

 

To whom it may concern,

 

I wish you and your partner the best of luck. But if you know it’s time for you to get out of that relationship DO SO SWIFTLY! BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE!

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He Treated Me Bad But Treats His New Bae Like A King!

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I find it funny how a person can mistreat you and abuse your love. But the moment they find somebody else, they want to have a change of heart. He breaks up with you but treating his new bae ten times better. His new boo-thang is a king in his eyes. While you were his peasant and a nuisance to him.

 

You thought you got rid of a demon and now he’s, unfortunately, somebody else’s problem. But you find out it’s quite different at least how it appears to be. He found somebody else and he damn near worships them. Now ain’t that a bitch?

 

It doesn’t matter if you thought he shitted gold. You could have catered to his every call and demand. But he has never treated you with such respect, honor, and love. All he ever did was cheat, betray and hurt you. Not saying behind closed doors he isn’t showing his true colors, well at least what you remember. But it’s hard to wrap your mind around his new persona.

 

He never looked at you with that sparkle in his eyes. He never smiled at you the way he’s smiling at his new partner. In a way, it can make you bitter and question yourself. It’s almost like you trying to figure out why couldn’t he treat you like that? Why couldn’t he do all those things for you? You’re seeing a man that you don’t even recognize. Aside to him that even you never had the opportunity to experience. That’s the sad part.

 

I was in a horrible relationship years ago. One of the worst relationships thus far. I still remember some of the evil things he would say to me. He was a devil in my eyes. I’ve been with some demons but they didn’t come close to his evil ass not even if they tried. This man was downright wrong in every way. He had his moments of being an okay boyfriend. But the other times were pure hell. I stayed for my own selfish ass reasons. We both needed each other for lessons that life hadn’t taught us yet. I knew I should’ve been left him before spending as much time as I did. but it there was a reason for me to stay in that relationship. He even told me once that I was the first guy to tell him I loved him. Sad! I felt bad for him and maybe I wanted to save him. I tend to want to save men all the time. That’s another post of its own.

 

When it was time for me to get out of that relationship, I did immediately. Years later, I came across him and his partner on Tumblr. It was a couples blog showcasing black gay love. This man was the happiest I’ve ever seen him in our whole relationship. He was an adult entertainer with only a few scenes at the time. I didn’t know he did it. I was 16 and he was 18 when we got together. But he had a lot of pain and anger from his childhood and he took it out on me a lot. But his husband was handsome and I couldn’t believe he was smiling. It made me cry. Yes, I cried! I always wanted to see him happy and even when I would try to make him happy, I just wasn’t good enough.

 

I found their YouTube and personal couple Facebook page. I was shocked how much he was in love with his husband. I remember him saying he’d never get married!!! He shut that question down immediately! But today he’s happily married and it made me feel so good knowing that he’s finally the man that I knew he could become someday. That’s when I start to think, well maybe it is possible to change. Maybe he became a better man for somebody else. Maybe life humbled him and he learned the error of his ways.

 

Now I can’t say he’s presenting this to the public but his normal self behind closed doors. I don’t know how their relationship dynamic is behind closed doors. But today we’re much older than we were back in 2006. He’s a whole grown ass man. So I don’t expect for him to do the things and act the way he did at 18.

 

This been on my mind all day. Just thinking how we come across so many beautiful couples. But we don’t know how many people they may have heart, mistreated and done wrong to get to that point of finally doing somebody right. I’m not bitter nor I am miserable. I’m happy for my ex and his husband. I felt so blessed to see this mature man who I was once in a horrible relationship with could turn around and man up and do right by somebody else. That’s a blessing for me. Some people may be bitter about it. But I’m just happy that he’s finally happy. THAT’S TRUE LOVE! I honestly don’t think I would have met all the other demons if he’d just been the man he is today. I can say we’d probably be married today. But that wasn’t in our journey or paths.

 

But it’s kind of sad that the one who was hurt and done wrong could still be alone and be dealing with fuck boys. While the one who was bad and evil in the relationship goes onto finding true love. But we all deserve to be happy no matter how much wrong we’ve done or caused others in our past. We all deserve a second chance.

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Black Gay Men And These Microwavable Relationships

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These microwavable relationships need to stop. The only way we can end this nonsense is by us making better relationship choices and that starts with the men we are choosing to date. You know in the back of your mind that man ain’t shit. But for some reason, you keep going back to him. You tolerate him and he knows it. He knows that he can do just about anything to you and you’ll be back just as quickly as you left.

 

Let’s say you just started dating this guy a week ago. Two months later you both already hate each other. He doesn’t like the way you act in public. You don’t like the way he scolds and belittles you. You both just jumped out of a previous relationship over the same thing. What’s going to change before y’all breakup and carry on the same issues into another relationship?

 

Gay men have the tendency of jumping from relationship to relationship. Sometimes they don’t even know what they’re expecting out of the relationship. It’s all about right now and quick satisfaction. Red signs and flags pop up. But they like to turn a blind eye to the truth. It’s all an illusion for them to feel content or at least believe they’re happy in love. But in reality, we all know the truth!

 

The truth is most of these relationships, most of the time are not legitimate relationships. You always going to have one partner that likes the other one a little bit more. Whether if it’s for the free 420, rides, a place to sleep at night, clout, power etc.

 

These couples nowadays don’t even last a whole month! I can’t remember the last time I’ve seen or dated somebody for a whole month since breaking up with my ex some years ago. It’s been problem after problem. Guys come and go like it’s a damn sport.

 

No feelings, no concerns, no expectations!

 

If you’re not satisfying them or if they can find a better option they leave instantly. Wash repeat, wash repeat! Breakups after breakups. Nowadays when I come across a black gay couple. I immediately question if they’ll last another week. Why do I feel that way? Well, I’ve seen this happen constantly. These gay couples dating for a few days and wanna move quickly and move in together by the second week.

 

One thing I have noticed was the fact that most successful black couples aren’t all over social media. They keep their relationships private! Take notes! They keep their relationship private to protect the union otherwise it’s free play. These men aren’t going to respect nor honor your relationship. They going to wanna fuck your man.

 

Time after time again these couples pop up Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Tumblr sharing everything! Somethings they shouldn’t even post online. People being FAKE leaving phony ass comments acting like they support. Meanwhile, they sitting back waiting for the relationship to fail. Waiting for their opportunity to snatch one of them up. Messy shit! Once again! Messy shit.

 

These men don’t know how to have long-term relationships because they’ve never experienced it. Nowadays most relationships fail instantly. They not putting in the work to get the correct results. A relationship is not created in 12 steps. Some relationships start off complicated. But I believe if you genuinely love somebody you will make it work.

 

Couples wanna leave for shit that they’ll deal with in just about every damn relationship after. I’ve never had a man not cheat on me. I’ve never met a man that hasn’t cheated. Does that mean all men cheat? No, but that means a majority of them do and they will. So if you prepare for that you won’t be shocked by the same shit. He cheated so you going to leave him and find another cheater? Or are you going to at least figure out why he cheated and what it is that makes you a contributor to him cheating? Because not all men cheat because it was a choice they wanted to make. Some men cheat because we push them to cheat. But you’ll never hear that from the horse’s mouth. The blame game only works one way for some. But some of us are well aware if we contributed to our men cheating.

 

Getting back on topic. So microwavable relationships are common nowadays. People jump in one relationship and the moment something doesn’t go their way and they’re on to the next. It’s just a back and forth cycle. But let me say this from a very honest place. If you find yourself jumping from relationship to relationship then maybe the problem is you.

 

Hear me out!

 

A lot of these microwavable daters and individuals falling into these relationships lack self-love, self-worth, and some self-esteem. They’re seeking validation in all the wrong places. The moment they fail to find it they back on the search again. But the harsh reality is the fact that they’ll never find true love. Because if it doesn’t start off with yourself then you won’t find it in anybody else.

 

I know a lot of gay men who were single, complicated and difficult and they will remain that way until they humble themselves. You can’t get over the rainbow with just one attempt. You have to have some love for yourself before anybody will ever think twice about loving you!

 

Stop going from guy to guy seeking what you can’t find in yourself. All you doing is wasting your time and energy. You blocking your blessings from finding the right one. Stop getting into these microwavable relationships and find somebody that you can invest some time into building a serious committed relationship.

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